Tom Sizemore honest about long-lasting drug battle

NEW YORK (AP) The road to recovery has been long and harrowing for Tom Sizemore, but now the actor feels he's finally back on track. He's got a slew of movies coming out, had a recurring role on "Hawaii Five-0" and has released a new memoir.

Still, he feels the residual effects of his downward spiral from years of substance dependency. His bouts with a laundry list of drugs devastated his movie career, left him homeless, sent him to jail and even led to a failed suicide attempt.

The prolonged abuse and subsequent rehab stints left a trail of disappointment and heartache.

With acclaimed performances in movies like "Saving Private Ryan" and "Black Hawk Down," Sizemore faded into oblivion, trading his work in front of the camera for the haze of heroin and crystal meth.

Recently, the 51-year old actor talked about getting his life back on track and what it took to write his memoir, "By Some Miracle I Made It Out of There." It's a no-holds barred portrayal of the actor's struggle.

While apprehensive at times,Sizemore was candid about his problem, and described his moment of clarity. He says it came after smoking a substantial amount of crystal meth. He admits to building up such a tolerance that the drug was ineffective. Disappointed, he looked in the mirror and finally saw the things that scared him.

"I looked like I was 100 years old. I had no relationship with my kids; I had no work to speak off. I was living in squat. ... I just started to cry," Sizemore said, struggling to maintain his emotional composure.

He decided to call his old friend Bob Forrest from "Celebrity Rehab" and asked him and Dr. Drew Pinsky for help.

"You saw 'Celebrity Rehab.' I look like I'm dead. I saw it (recently) for the first time in a long time. I'm feeling really vulnerable right now," he said as he clutched a nearby stuffed animal.

Sizemore appeared on the third season of the VH1 show and then on its spinoff, "Sober House." He admits doing the show partly for the money. By that time, he was deep in debt to the tune of many, many zeroes.

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